This is just a brief blog post to express my sincere and immense excitement for today and tomorrow. Tonight is the Feminist Porn Awards, which definitely makes my heart sing. As someone who is very strongly feminist and kind of an artsy dorky queer into transgressive sex and way over-intellectualizing it, it’s pretty much my home. It’s also in my hometown (Toronto represent!) and organized by the sex toy store where I bought my first vibrator way back when… It just feels right. This year, we’re up for two awards, so I may even get to stride up onstage and accept an awesome buttplug statuette again. I say again because The Art of Blowjob was an honoured website in 2011 and I got to give a very adorably enthusiastic speech. It used to be up on Youtube, but I can’t find it anymore. Sigh. Such is life. Suffice it to say, I talk with my hands more than the sign language interpreter. That is a feat in and of itself.
Then tomorrow is one of the biggest things of my young life: I’m speaking at the University of Toronto for the first ever Feminist Porn Conference. It’s run by Tristan Taormino, who is one of my biggest porn idols and just about every single person I adore in the industry will be speaking. I’m representing beautiful porn while trying to delve into the way aesthetics frame how we name and categorize porn, and how that engages with women and more traditionally artistically-inclined audiences. It feels a little radical. I hope I don’t ruffle too many feathers… But, maybe a few.
I’m less than a month shy of my three year anniversary working in porn and I feel like things have picked up. There are so many things in the works and I feel like this blog is helping me find my place in the industry all the more. I’m still not totally sure how candid I’ll get, but once my brain is not entirely focused on my presentation, I’ll return to finding ways to carve out my own little home in the porn world.