It feels nice and a little weird to be back here. I’m taking yet another stab at mixing some sort blend of personal anecdotes and introspection about porn, sexuality and relationships because I have all these ideas and I really want to share them. Before, I found myself writing reviews, which is good for momentum but not exactly all I want to be doing with my spare creative time. I’ll still be doing it, since I have a pretty nice stack of DVDs to plow through, but I don’t want to be limiting myself to just that.
What does this mean, practically speaking? Well, for one thing, I want to share a bit more about my intimate life. I tend to keep things relatively close to the chest as a PR person, but I’m trying to position myself a bit more broadly now, and that gives me a certain flexibility. Oh, and I’ve been pretty busy lately, sex-wise. A new city and a sense of freedom after a sexually challenging relationship liberated me. 2013 has been quite a year, and it’s only March.
Maybe it’ll manifest itself as some confessional writing. Maybe it’ll be more or less structured/stylized. More likely, it’ll be responding to the porn/sexuality culture and applying my own critical lens to things as someone with a vested interest in beautiful, intimate and independent porn. Perhaps some combination of the two.
One impetus for this definitely comes from the fact that I’m gearing up to present a paper and sit on a panel at the first ever Feminist Porn Conference in less than two weeks. I want to have a stable home base to think things out and be able to discuss the things that interest me about the kind of porn with which I engage.
The other is that I’m taking an increasingly active role as a face for the websites I work for. I knew it was likely to be the case, but the more panels I sit on, the more interviews I do and the more I get entrenched in the industry, the more I want to solidify my position as more than just a person who represents a group of websites. It’s still one of the most important things I do, but I want to prove interesting in other meaningful and natural ways.
Maybe erotica? Maybe critical thought? Maybe this’ll be a gateway drug into taking a more active role in porn? We’ll see how it shakes out, but it’ll definitely be something.